February 2013
2 posts
You make me talk metaphorically.
retroradio780: I didn’t realize why I had been so sad. I didn’t think you not being here would impact me that much.  Long distance is like living in Alaska. You; being my sunshine are always there and I know you are, otherwise the world wouldn’t be here, I wouldn’t be here, as I am at least. But I only ever get to experience your warmth, the light, the love, occasionally. The difference is they...
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November 2012
1 post
There's nothing left for me to do, but open up my...
Trouble haunts my future like a stranger in the night.
Nov 29th
October 2012
11 posts
Ten pounds lighter.
2 weeks in.
Oct 31st
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Oct 29th
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Oct 29th
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Oct 28th
This is exactly how I feel.
unknownthoughtsnomind: I feel distant from my “friends” I feel like I’m getting replaced Like I’m kind of just there Always last choice Always have excuses Ok, thanks guys.
Oct 26th
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Oct 26th
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Diets
I saw a physician and starting a diet at 189 lbs. I’m 21years old and 5’7” in height.
Oct 25th
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“The decision to kiss for the first time is the most crucial in any love story....”
– Emil Ludwig (via kgamboa)
Oct 25th
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April 2012
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Apr 11th
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March 2012
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Mar 12th
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February 2012
3 posts
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Next Tattoo
[just breathe] and  [it goes on] on my wrists.
Feb 8th
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i need some one to talk to.
Feb 6th
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September 2011
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Sep 18th
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During Quidditch matches, Filch is seen supporting...
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May 2011
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March 2011
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Disoriented Vascular Organ
Its funny. How easy it is to keep some one out, right behind the awfully nice walls I build up around my sanity. But when he looks at me, the walls just evaporate. He sees nothing but the raw, the raw version of me. This is absolutely terrifying. There’s pain, so much I don’t even know how I function everyday. Anger built so high, I can’t even see the reason why. And the...
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February 2011
5 posts
Feb 25th
Reading Old Blogs.
As I read old blogs, not only do i get waves of emotions that I cant contain…but, I realize that I use to write so well. For example: He was a Prince of sorts. Charming, brilliant, and a Savior.   I don’t love you.   Like love never existed. Love doesn’t exist. Oh my god love doesn’t exist.   She was a outcast. Worthless, unwanted, pathetic.   I don’t believe you.  ...
Feb 24th
“I will not let you love me, yet I am weak: I love you so intensely that I...”
– Silence by Anna Wickham
Feb 23rd
how do colors know how i feel?
Your Existing Situation “Very emotional and artistic, enjoys being surrounded by beauty and art. Looking for a partner who always has an eye for beauty and who enjoys close, loving relationships.” Your Stress Sources Feeling empty and isolated from others and trying to bridge the gap between herself and others. Wants to live life to the fullest and experience as much as possible. she...
Feb 8th
Why I am just Wrong.
I’ve been sad. Sad because I’m lonely. Sad because everyone I know has some one else. Sad because I was used for seven months, by my own fucking choice.  And then, then…I go so depressed I couldn’t utter a word,  absolute loss of speech. So more or less, I had to reset my feelings. So now, there’s my friend. He loves me. I don’t know… 
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January 2011
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December 2010
1 post
Best Christmas gifts
Nerf gun Pez iPhone 4 Notw shoes :)
Dec 28th
November 2010
4 posts
This is me, without you.
I understand how you could just walk away from me. Why stand by some one who can control the pain you caused them, some one who, says nothing but insulting jabs towards you loyalty. How could I possibly expect you to stay here with me. but at the same time, would it be so bad to tell me that you care? thats the only thing I want to hear.  That you fucking give damn. Is that so hard to say? 
Nov 17th
“Maybe I’m just farsighted. The further away something is, the better I can see...”
– Shouji [Nana]
Nov 16th
oh and,
I am so fucking selfish.
Nov 15th
just nothing.
I’ve realized that you started to walk away from me a long time ago, and I’ve been running after you trying to keep up.  Only a year ago you told me you would do anything for me, and you would always be by my side, but as I tried to get you to repeat those words to me you tell me that you don’t really care any way.  You might laugh when I die.  If I left, you would just shrug....
Nov 15th
September 2010
2 posts
My version of Elliott Erwitt
His: My take on it:
Sep 15th
Mistakes
aren’t hard to make, at all. Praying so hard that I won’t have to face the consequences for this one. I really think I pushed God’s patience way to far.
Sep 6th